Crash and burn

AT ONE POINT I WAS THE HAPPIEST PERSON IN THE WORLD NOW ALL I SEE OUT OF MY EYES IN IN MY PATH IS ME CRASHING AND BURNING NOTHINGS RIGHT ANYMORE AND ONCE AGAIN IN LIFE I FEEL LEFT ALONE TO FIN FOR MYSELF WITH NO ONES HELP OR NO ONE WHO CARES.ITS HARD WHEN YOUR ONE STEP AWAY FROM HAPPINESS AND HAPPINESS CLOSES THE DOOR IN YOUR FACE AND IT SEEMS THE ONLY THING WELCOMING YOU IS DEALTH. WHATS LEFT TO LIVE FOR? WHATS THE POINT IN TAKING UP SPACE AND BREATHING AIR THAT CANT FILL THE EMPTINESS IN YOUR HEART OR PUT THE FIRE OUT IN YOUR SOUL?
        WHAT DO YOU HAVE TO LOOK FORWARD TO WHEN YOU FEEL THE PEOPLE WHO ARE SUPPOSE TO AND SHOULD LOVE YOU PUSH YOU AWAY AND LEAVE YOU FOR DEAD? WHY NOT JUST MAKE THE WORLD HAPPY AND DIE. IF ONLY IT WERE THAT EASY.SLEEP IS THE COUSIN TO DEALTH I WISH I COULD JUST SLEEP AND NEVER FEEL THE PAIN MAYBE MY HEART WOULDNT BE SO HEAVY.BUT WHAT MORE CAN I SAY BESIDES MY LAST GOODBYES AND SAY IM ONE STEP AWAYS FROM GOING OVER THE EDGE AND NOW THAT YOU KNOW HOW FAR ARE YOU WILLING TO PUSH ME?BUT IF ONLY YOU KNEW IM ALREADY DEAD JUST WAITING FOR MY BODY T CATCH UP WITH MY SOUL.YOUD KNOW YOU ALREADY KILLED ME MIND SOUL AND SPIRT