I wish

I wish someone will love me for me without taking a look at my past I wish someone will love me for me and try to pursue a future stop being stuck on what didn't last. If you stay in the past things like this will never last .I wish people could understand me see everything I have  endured from the pain to the hurt. I wish I actually know if I have people who were here for me or do I have people who want a front row seat to see. I wish I had someone who cares or I wish I felt wanted instead of alone I wish I had a friend to help me find my way to a place I can call home I wish I wish I wish to find love someone to love me forever so that I would no longer have so wish.

Lies

He told me he loves me but it's all lies I can tell by how he talks in the looks in his eyes. He tells me he cares about me and doesn't want anyone but me but it's all lies there's nothing true left to believe.

      He tells me he would never cheat on me because I am the light of his life well I guess the lights out because it was all lies . He has a different girl for every day of the week but I'm the girl he's with when he comes home to sleep. He told me he would never hurt my feelings or break my heart but it was all lies he's been lying from the start if you look at our relationship you'll see only one thing is true that our relationship was built on lies told from your point of view.

The girl behind the pin

Why would you

Why would you tell me you love me when you don't know what love is

Is it because I'm always there for you or because I have your kid

Why do you say things you don't truly mean you've told so many lies they start to come in between us.

 I would say fuck you but I can't say what I don't truly mean ,why would you do the things you do it hurt the people around you and why would you treat me the way you do when all I did was love you. Why would you break me down to build yourself up when I'm here to catch you when you fall 

when everyone else is given up why would you take me through hell when you promised me heaven on earth and I stand here and whether away why you leave me in the dirt. I loved you thought I had I gave you all that I left and I still love to wonder why just why would you

I'll live

You think just because you miss treat me no one loves me but you're wrong. I knew what you were from the beginning so I made plans so that I live

  just because you gave me life does not mean your a mother and I've been well without you so I know I live 

you think that I'm boy crazy but is not true they just show they care more than you

  I know that you don't want me in that's fine because one thing that I've learned is I live you hurt me so many times that I lost count but even with that I'll live long because I believe in myself and what lives within I've learned I'll live

Crazy

It's crazy how a friend turned into a lover I understood parts of you no one else did and I saw sides of you the world didn't know existed. I loved you and was willing to give you the world but you weren't ready you still have growing to do. You kept me because you knew I was what you needed but didn't know what to do with the fact you loved me so much you became codependent.you pushed me away enough to grow apart but close enough for no other man to have me.

          You damaged me I spent so much time fixing your broken pieces but you shattered mine in return. I Just wanted  to love and your time. It was too much and you gave to little it's crazy how a friend turned into a lover and then into a total stranger