I never thought I'd fall in love (7/13/04)

I never thought I'd miss you this much. I knew I was sprung from the start and this love thing baby you've truly got my heart. When it comes to our lives I pray that we never part. The thought of you leaving me my brain can't even begin to start... The thought. Baby I forever belong to you. Many hate the thought of the love we've found in each other it may be us against the world and with that in cool long as I'm against them loving you.

              You've changed me for the better and made me forget that I've been through the worst. You've melted away pain I thought I'd carry until my dying day yet with one swift motion you've wiped the pain away. I never thought I'd fall in love and I never thought I'd be moved to be a better me.

Invisible dreams

I often dream of the day we'll be together the day you don't look through me but you actually see me. The day my love and efforts don't go unnoticed and everything I've worked for becomes fruitful. The day you have a understanding that my love isn't owed to you yet you are the rightful owner. I pray that my once white walls can be vividly decorated with your love. 

           I want to feel all that is you , mind , body , soul and spirit. I want to be seen I want your eyes to light up when I walk in a room as they dance up and down my spine. I want to be the reason air escapes your lungs and you feel you can't breathe and my love restores you. I want to be close to you like a second skin I want to be a part of you. I want to join your world I want to be noticed I want to be remembered but I'm just a invisible dream

The end is near

Our relationship is no longer on track it's clear love is what we lack. So this tells me the end is near. We've become cold the love has grown old simply put on hold the end is near. Our friendship has gone weak what use to be fun no is equal to sleep.we lack communication and mental stimulation. As much as it hurts the end is near. I'm tired of trying tired of you lying tried of pretending to be happy while with you my word is ending. I'm sorry but the end is near. As I drop my last tear I realize the end is here.

Everytime I leave I end up staying

You make me feel so low. I try to leave but you won't let me go.so I'm stuck playing the fool. I'm in and out of school chasing after you. You no longer treat me like you use to do I'm leaving you.yet you don't let me leave you get down on your knees and start begging please I'm hopeless I'm helpless, I don't leave.i give you one more chance to change. And you change you do but for the worst. You tell me lies you make me cry and why because you don't think I will leave. When my bag are at the door you beg you plead you tell  me you care , I leave but I end up staying. I see the hurt in your eyes and stay one more time. I still love you but you don't love me back. Your empty your cold my heart is your home and you could care less. I walk out the door you pull me back once more. I leave but I end up staying

Losing love

Losing love is emotional like a baby with its name. Its emotional it can confuse you like a head without a brain. Love is something you would do for someone else that you wouldn't do for yourself. Losing love is like singing a song and for getting the words it's like a boy without a girl it's like a human with no world it's like forgetting your best friends birthday that you've known since birth it's like not knowing the day you came unto this earth. It's like saying I love you with no one else in the room.Love is filled with emotion that you have to share but how can you share if no one's there it's hard to be emotional when your left by yourself just call me and always be there to help

When I loved you

When your hand touched mine you sent electric currents through my body.when I thought you were perfect it didn't matter that you weren't.when no food I've ever eaten can compare to the taste of your tongue. Nothing felt better than us being one. My heart melted at the sight of you.

              When you said there was no better place to be then inside of me when your goodbyes made my heart drop and just one word from you could always make my tears stop. When my feelings were hurt you took the pain for me.when you met my family and even my brothers liked you. When you made sure to apologize even when you weren't  wrong.id always put your name in every love song. I imagine life without you in the pain I can be there I can't go and I will without thinking about you never wanted to let you go when I had you that was the moment that I knew that I loved you

I wish

I wish someone will love me for me without taking a look at my past I wish someone will love me for me and try to pursue a future stop being stuck on what didn't last. If you stay in the past things like this will never last .I wish people could understand me see everything I have  endured from the pain to the hurt. I wish I actually know if I have people who were here for me or do I have people who want a front row seat to see. I wish I had someone who cares or I wish I felt wanted instead of alone I wish I had a friend to help me find my way to a place I can call home I wish I wish I wish to find love someone to love me forever so that I would no longer have so wish.